Who I am…
I have to first explain something that is in my spirit that is personal as it relates to my blog. This is not a random kind of place. I started blogging because I was sort of practice writing the things that were full in my spirit from day to day. This is my personal space in which I share the word with anyone who wants to stop by and read it. Even if no one stopped by, I will still write it. It’s kind of an on-line journal of my journey. Now, I am a regular woman in a flesh body, but I don’t think about stuff the way most women do. Nor do I desire to. I have been changed into someone that even I am still getting used to. What moves some people doesn’t move me.
I LOVE the WORD. I love hearing it, reading it, speaking it, writing it. That’s just who I am. So if it bores anyone that that’s all I intend to share on this space…well, I am sorry you’ll be disappointed. But I realized that what I have to share and want to share is not the same thing you can get any where else. I intend to share my struggles, my joys, my family and me here as it relates to being pressed into what G-d desires for me to be. I am a preacher. It’s who I am. I realize it's not who I aspire to be. It's already in me. All I am doing is perfecting that which was given to me from Father. Everything else that I have experienced, was training me for the most pivotal point of my life and I am in that season right now. That’s what I have to share. Who I am day to day as it relates to this season of my life.
I said all of that because, I don’t intend to do MEME’s or talk about political stuff or breaking news. I only want to share some of my conversation that I had with Father throughout the day, the lessons I learn from the word that I study, the RHEMA I get from church from my spiritual father and how all of that fits into my life. Nothing else matters to me. I know some people say they want to live the word and then compromise it somewhere along the line, but that’s not how I’m going to live. I am either going to walk the walk or I am simply going to find something else to do with my Sundays, Mondays, and Thursdays as it relates to church but I am not going to live hypocritically. I will not play the church game, spouting word and not living it.
I have to first explain something that is in my spirit that is personal as it relates to my blog. This is not a random kind of place. I started blogging because I was sort of practice writing the things that were full in my spirit from day to day. This is my personal space in which I share the word with anyone who wants to stop by and read it. Even if no one stopped by, I will still write it. It’s kind of an on-line journal of my journey. Now, I am a regular woman in a flesh body, but I don’t think about stuff the way most women do. Nor do I desire to. I have been changed into someone that even I am still getting used to. What moves some people doesn’t move me.
I LOVE the WORD. I love hearing it, reading it, speaking it, writing it. That’s just who I am. So if it bores anyone that that’s all I intend to share on this space…well, I am sorry you’ll be disappointed. But I realized that what I have to share and want to share is not the same thing you can get any where else. I intend to share my struggles, my joys, my family and me here as it relates to being pressed into what G-d desires for me to be. I am a preacher. It’s who I am. I realize it's not who I aspire to be. It's already in me. All I am doing is perfecting that which was given to me from Father. Everything else that I have experienced, was training me for the most pivotal point of my life and I am in that season right now. That’s what I have to share. Who I am day to day as it relates to this season of my life.
I said all of that because, I don’t intend to do MEME’s or talk about political stuff or breaking news. I only want to share some of my conversation that I had with Father throughout the day, the lessons I learn from the word that I study, the RHEMA I get from church from my spiritual father and how all of that fits into my life. Nothing else matters to me. I know some people say they want to live the word and then compromise it somewhere along the line, but that’s not how I’m going to live. I am either going to walk the walk or I am simply going to find something else to do with my Sundays, Mondays, and Thursdays as it relates to church but I am not going to live hypocritically. I will not play the church game, spouting word and not living it.
First off, Father sees me and he won’t be pleased, and secondly, my children see me and they need to know that momma is going to walk this thing out no matter what I have to lose or do to and how uncomfortable it is to my flesh. (and it is uncomfortable) So if I get out of line as it relates to the word, check me! I appreciate that. I want people to be honest with me and keep it real. The word says if you love the word, you can’t be offended(psalm 119:165). I like truth.
Now, that I have said all of that, I have been on fire to tell you that last Thursday night, my Spiritual Father preached a prophetic message on the timing of G-d as it relates to answered prayer! When he said it, I felt this huge leap in my spirit because both Serenity and I had just blogged about that as it relates to obtaining the promises that G-d has given to us about purchasing homes. I actually had a whole lot of other stuff on the altar as it relates to his time, but that's an entry for another day. But he answered every one of my questions. I spent so much time shouting that I really didn’t take that many notes. Thank G-d for tapes! (And yes, I do “clown” in service). You would too if you had this man. He just brings it out of you. He really is awesome, I can’t even say enough about him. I do however realize it’s the G-d in him that answers my spirit. Still, I love him because he has yielded himself enough to be used that way. He keeps it real and he is blunt and you can’t be mad unless you don’t like truth.
I left with the understanding that we truly have to acknowledge Father in all things because only then can we operate in perfect will. Trying to do things out of season will lead to failure and struggle. Sometimes we are asking for something that Father is not going to give us until he gets the maximum glory out of it. He will also not release something while there is too much demonic activity surrounding that thing. What we fail to realize is that everything that we have requested is on G-d’s schedule and not ours. We want our stuff when we want it not understanding that things have to take place before we can get it. Sometimes we have to let habits go, people go, etc…You can’t take everybody in your life right now to where you are going. He wants to arrange our lives so that divine order takes place before those things can jump off the altar. I understand all of that. Especially since he said today that G-d is willing to give us an exact day and month. All I need to do is ask him when that day is.
Everything that Father wants to give us is according to season. If we get something out of season it will curse us instead of being the blessing that G-d designed it to be. See, even if you meet the man that G-d has for you, if you get him before G-d wanted to give him to you, the end result of the relationship will be just as if he was the wrong person. Timing is everything to G-d. He is a G-d of order after all. You simply can not get ahead of him.
Now, that I have said all of that, I have been on fire to tell you that last Thursday night, my Spiritual Father preached a prophetic message on the timing of G-d as it relates to answered prayer! When he said it, I felt this huge leap in my spirit because both Serenity and I had just blogged about that as it relates to obtaining the promises that G-d has given to us about purchasing homes. I actually had a whole lot of other stuff on the altar as it relates to his time, but that's an entry for another day. But he answered every one of my questions. I spent so much time shouting that I really didn’t take that many notes. Thank G-d for tapes! (And yes, I do “clown” in service). You would too if you had this man. He just brings it out of you. He really is awesome, I can’t even say enough about him. I do however realize it’s the G-d in him that answers my spirit. Still, I love him because he has yielded himself enough to be used that way. He keeps it real and he is blunt and you can’t be mad unless you don’t like truth.
I left with the understanding that we truly have to acknowledge Father in all things because only then can we operate in perfect will. Trying to do things out of season will lead to failure and struggle. Sometimes we are asking for something that Father is not going to give us until he gets the maximum glory out of it. He will also not release something while there is too much demonic activity surrounding that thing. What we fail to realize is that everything that we have requested is on G-d’s schedule and not ours. We want our stuff when we want it not understanding that things have to take place before we can get it. Sometimes we have to let habits go, people go, etc…You can’t take everybody in your life right now to where you are going. He wants to arrange our lives so that divine order takes place before those things can jump off the altar. I understand all of that. Especially since he said today that G-d is willing to give us an exact day and month. All I need to do is ask him when that day is.
Everything that Father wants to give us is according to season. If we get something out of season it will curse us instead of being the blessing that G-d designed it to be. See, even if you meet the man that G-d has for you, if you get him before G-d wanted to give him to you, the end result of the relationship will be just as if he was the wrong person. Timing is everything to G-d. He is a G-d of order after all. You simply can not get ahead of him.
So while I have been crying out to G-d for certain things to take place in my life, I realize that I must simply embrace this season of my life so that I can learn every lesson and wait for the things that he has for me in it’s season. I want to be purged of the things that are necessary for me to not only obtain the blessings but be able to keep them once I get them. I know I’m not ready for all of them. It’s my job to maintain the vision I have and that he has given to me so that I don’t perish. If you can’t see past your current state, you will begin to go backwards!
Yesterday, I was reading Luke chapter 9 and in that chapter Jesus says a couple of powerful things that were so personal to this season that I speak them to myself in uncomfortable circumstances throughout the day. V. 23 say that if we are coming after him we have to deny ourselves. We don’t like to hear that but I understand that one of the reasons people don’t truly walk the walk is because they refuse to deny themselves long enough to be converted in their thinking and then in action. I realized I can’t afford not deny myself because all the hell I’ve been through is for someone else.(Ecclesiastes 3:15) I have to take up my “cross” to those things it takes to serve Father-wholly--everyday in order to stay the course.
**-SIGH-**…
He also gave some notes on 4th watch prayer that can be found HERE on my other blog.
Well, all I can say is--I am pressing towards my mark. Come hell or high water, I’m going to the other side! I have made up in my mind that nothing less will do it for me. I know that’s not me but my spirit because my flesh is fighting that with all it can. I love Fred Hammond and he has a song Called “I want my destiny”. I think he says it best-- “…Can’t settle for , having nothing short of what you made me to be, you want me to be, cause’ I want it all…”. It’s not in me to settle in this instance. It’s just who I am now.
Yesterday, I was reading Luke chapter 9 and in that chapter Jesus says a couple of powerful things that were so personal to this season that I speak them to myself in uncomfortable circumstances throughout the day. V. 23 say that if we are coming after him we have to deny ourselves. We don’t like to hear that but I understand that one of the reasons people don’t truly walk the walk is because they refuse to deny themselves long enough to be converted in their thinking and then in action. I realized I can’t afford not deny myself because all the hell I’ve been through is for someone else.(Ecclesiastes 3:15) I have to take up my “cross” to those things it takes to serve Father-wholly--everyday in order to stay the course.
**-SIGH-**…
He also gave some notes on 4th watch prayer that can be found HERE on my other blog.
Well, all I can say is--I am pressing towards my mark. Come hell or high water, I’m going to the other side! I have made up in my mind that nothing less will do it for me. I know that’s not me but my spirit because my flesh is fighting that with all it can. I love Fred Hammond and he has a song Called “I want my destiny”. I think he says it best-- “…Can’t settle for , having nothing short of what you made me to be, you want me to be, cause’ I want it all…”. It’s not in me to settle in this instance. It’s just who I am now.
May you be abundantly blessed!
Chosen.
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