Wednesday, March 21, 2007


“Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap”. Galatians 6:7

I am finally finding my way around Colorado. Not too much but enough to know how to get downtown or to other cities close by. I love the weather despite it wreaking havoc on what seemed to be a dormant sinus issue I was healed from years ago. Now I know what LadyLee was talking about when she said her nose bled when she was here. I finally got a little taste of that. Prayer and 84 antibiotic pills worked it out finally after a 6 week battle. The final diagnosis—environmental allergies. Hmm…I’ll save that subject for another day.

I am really enjoying myself here. When I first got here, I visited several different churches. Just making the rounds you know. Being nice—everybody wants to show off their pastors or believe their church was where I needed to be. I already knew that I had not been reassigned but I figured maybe I would ask G-d one more time. I prayed on it and the answer remained the same. I’m still under my own SF. I watch services via webcast 3 days a week and I happen to be very satisfied.

Of course, not going to church clearly means to all the regular goers that I am in a back-slidden position. Yes, this little minister-in-training has surely left G-d and is clearly listening to a demon in my prayer closet because I have forsaken the assembling of myself with other “saints”. And of course my children will surely be headed down the wrong path now. NOT! I still pray, continue to fast and read my bible everyday. I guess that’s not enough. Now to me opinions are like butts—everybody has one. I have learned that you don’t have to worry about what people say unless you agree with them. I find it quite cute—the concern over my salvation and all that.

I mentioned it because I too have been caught up in activity of going to church. I thought when I got here I would surely fall to the wayside and end up back in some mess that I had already been delivered from. But, I came to the understanding that church was never responsible for keeping me “saved”. It was G-d all the time. The one thing that I really lacked was the confidence in my ability to trust the things that I was learning in my devotional time. I have outgrown that now. A couple of months alone can do that. When I hear a confirmation—it’s nice, but I no longer need it nor seek it.

And of course I need to look at all these MLM businesses that everyone seems to be doing. I think it’s fantastic that they are excited about their businesses. I happen to think that what G-d has given to me is absolutely wonderful and I don’t happen to believe that I need theirs. I thank them for the consideration, but things work according to our faith. Anything we get involved in must excite us and get our creative juices flowing. We must also believe in what we are doing. I tried explaining this but it seemed to go over some heads. The conversation ended with silence. How easily some Christians forget Proverbs 3:6 In all thy ways acknowledge him and he shall direct thy paths…Oh well. I’m not moving until I see a confirmation. A clear one--like Gabriel, Michael and Moses doing river dance or something. For real!

It simply amazes me on how much work I seem to need to some people. I find it incredibly funny. I know I am reaping a harvest. And it’s still funny to me. In my time evaluating me I had to accept that I have done this too often. The best and biggest lesson I have learned since being here is what I am willing to do doesn’t work for some people. I no longer argue the word—I get that academic knowledge is where some people stopped at so may not see what I see. Their pastors went to seminary and all that good stuff and I haven’t. Surely I couldn’t know anything. I guess have read 1 John 2:27 wrong or something. And G-d has never told me to go seminary so I’m not packing any bags to go either. Church is wonderful. But I always say after you come from service you need to find out what part of the message G-d meant for you. Everyone doesn’t think that. Well, since this harvest has manifested so easily—surely the other ones I’m looking for are just around the corner as well.

Be Blessed.


Monday, March 19, 2007

...If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth. Mark 9:23
Funny how a scripture can be so simple and you can still really miss what it's saying.
Yeah…I know. I have been one for a very long time. All I can say is BUSY. At the beginning of the year I had hoped for more time to commit to writing here, but it simply never happened. Every time I thought about writing here, I would begin a post only to get wrapped into something else. Needless to say I have a ton of unfinished posts that I have decided to simply delete from my hard drive.

This year was all about change for me. I have been declaring the “Best Year Ever” for a number of years now but always falling short of the goal. This year is one that I simply refuse to let go by without achieving the things that I have set for myself. It’s so weird when you began to evaluate who you are the things that you discover. I discovered that I needed a total metamorphosis in my mind! I was so unaware of the layers of junk and erroneous thinking that had become a part of who I was. I realized that so much of it came either from childhood or the negative experiences that I had encountered as I grew into adulthood that I have allowed to shape my view. All wrong! I have to tell you that my thinking sucked! I always tried to stay positive but I really still always felt that I wasn’t in control of the circumstances that came my way. Through quite a bit of word time I discovered how erroneous that really was. Part of understanding dominion is understanding that G-d wants us to operate as if we are the determining factor in any situation that we face. I understood that only enough to fail at it for a really long time. I would always say that I was trusting G-d but I would never spend time thinking of how I wanted things to turn out. Whenever things would turn out my way I would be astonished. G-d has been incredibly good to me because I was so immature in this area. If I reaaly beleived like I said I did, things would've always turned out exactly like I said and how I thought.

As a parent this is one of the lessons that I am really going to strive to teach my children. They have to have an understanding of spiritual law. What you think all the time will come to pass. Without realizing it, it’s a form of meditation. Imagination is a really powerful thing. I want my children to live by what I reach them and the example that I set before them.

Needless to say, my book shelf has increased with some of the best books on the subject. Norman Vincent Peale’s “The Power of Positive Thinking” is my favorite. I love how he mixes the word with psychology. It’s made a tremendous difference in my life. I’ve also had to reevaluate my company too. So much of our issues stem from those around us as well. This is why some of these ineffective relationships must die this year! One thing that positive thinking does is bring clarity to your life. I know what I want, how I want it and I am never more determined now to see it in my life than ever before.

Besides working on my goals this year—finally publishing a book, achieving financial independence, getting fit…I finally understand timing. My Spiritual Father always says “when you are ready for it, it will be ready or you.” I get that now. So much of that has to do with internal changes and maturity to handle another level in life. So, I’m just taking my time—getting stronger and getting ready to be able to handle all of the things I believed I was ready for only know I know that I’m just beginning to get there now.

Well, as always Be Blessed.